everyone's seemed to have moved on to the next part of their lives, setting out the boxes to be ticked, and have already started going down the list..

and yet the thing is, while there are a few things i do know i really want in life, somehow it never occurred to me that they should occur now. there are so many things in life i still want to do. i like being free and owing no obligations to anyone. and even if i were to owe any obligations, i want the person i owe it to, to be the most amazing person i know. to share my crazy, ludicrous dreams that seem to constantly float higher and higher up to the skies. i'm just not that type to be happy to live a life that is all about doing what is right in life, or fulfilling the norms or ideals set out by society, especially this society. for all that i dislike about america, i seem to be seeking the american dream. the dream that anyone can dream, and if you work hard enough, that dream will one day be yours. and till i at least make a shot at that dream, i will always live with this perpetual dissatisfaction, hunger, yearning, caged-up feeling.

seriously, i never knew how much i appreciated rg girls, till one agreed with my ideas about marriage and made me feel less like an outcast today -.- i'm tired of people asking me about any domestic intentions. NO PLANS WHATSOEVER OKAY. the oppressive air is bearing down on me.

owen pallett was pretty good. but the precious hours after that was perfect (: